Ill-Natured - I Am Loco

Life is weighing down on me, killing me inside
Something I could never be will guide me to the new
Light
Frustrated
Sedated
I pray to myself

God please
Don't take away from me

The only fucking thing
That I learned to believe
I am becoming the monster
You promised to keep him away
Now I feel like he's living in me!!!

Anyway, I could never ever be
What you think is right for me
Are things that I will not believe
I want to start a new life
Get myself a sharp knife
Look into my own life
Kill things I don't like in me

But sometimes I feel OK
And think I'm unique
You always try to critique
I turn my back on it anyway
Sucker! Punk-ass motherfucker!
I am loco!
Te falta un poco!
To get your ass in a choke-hold!

Just kill me - I can't breathe
I am guiding myself right to the end
I can't learn - come to terms
With the sickness that makes me crash and burn

I'm crying, I feel like I am dying but I'm trying
I beg to myself put my pride up on the shelf
Life is not forever
But if life will stay together
I would have a friend in my depression, have an end

But I've been thinking
And thinking always gets me into trouble
But since I have a double personality
I wasn't me you see
Now I'm a refugee
And everything inside of me is just a part of my
Disease!!!

Just kill me - I can't breathe
I am guiding myself right to the end
I can't learn - come to terms
With the sickness that makes me crash and burn